Monday, December 21, 2015 I really never thought that after 5 years, I'd see this blog once again. So much has happened and changed, but thankfully, it's still as easy to blog about something. But unfortunately, some things never changed, one of which is my struggle to that issue. Will I ever, ever, truly find redemption and freedom from it? Will patience and understanding run out first? Will I have my own happy ending? 9:26 AM Tuesday, October 5, 2010 Attachment's over. On one hand, I'm glad that it's over, it's tiring waking up early and standing for hours. It drained much energy and time from me, and I always seem to feel tired. But yet on the other hand, I learnt plenty of things too, from patients and nurses alike. God has shown me certain things too. Overall, it's been a great experience, but one that I do not want to go through it again until later, much later. School's gonna start in two weeks time and frankly, I'm not ready for it. There are issues that still need to be dealt with, I want to be a different person, I want to be who I am. I want to be free, free to be who I'm really am. And for that to happen, I can only count on Him. I just wish that I'd stop thinking so much. But I don't know how. Had fun today, thanks pal. A life-long process. 9:20 PM Saturday, September 11, 2010 Just the thought of me going for my attachement soon gives me the goosebumps. I mean, seriously, I never thought in my wildest dreams that I'd actually take nursing as my choice of studies. I can't imagine myself entering the hospital, entering the ward and caring for the patients. I mean, I'm the one that is usually being taken care of, not the other way round. It's just crazy and scary and unpredictable! But then again, I've to trust God, that He's gonna be there for me. Cos if He put me in here, He has a plan, a successful one. On a lighter note, after placing my order three months ago(!) on Amazon, my DVD is finally on they way. It'll probably take another month for it to arrive. Been playing pool for the past few days. Got scolded by my dad for coming home too late (which is very uncharateristic of me!). Yupps, that's how my week was like, so far. It's gonna be alot different when next week comes along. I'm gonna be alot busier, if I'm 'lucky'. :) 9:20 PM Sunday, September 5, 2010 We all have struggles. Be it with relationships with family or friends, with studies or emotions etc, we struggle. And I'm no exception. At times when I'm really down, or alone, I just can't help but feel that I'm a nobody, that nobody cares for me. I'd be sooo upset, and I can't find a way to cheer myself up or lift myself up from this gloom. Not until a few days ago, where I read this verse that says I'm God's workmanship. It then finally dawned on me that even if the whole world walks out on me, I still have someone that cares for me. Someone who really know, love me, care for me and made me. Someone who made this world and is all-powerful. God. And He's really all that matters. He's gonna help me through my life, He will be there for me. That's more than I can ask for. :) 4:20 PM Saturday, September 4, 2010 I'm awake right now, and by right, I should still be sleeping. I woke up early, getting prepped up for some meeting, only for her to tell me it's been cancelled. To attend this meeting, I had to cancel another event, an event which I wanted to have. And naturally, I'm feeling very disappointed now. It's only 10 in the morning but I'm already feeling so exhausted. Oh life! Oh well, I guess crap happens. On a lighter note, I feel as though I'm experiencing my second childhood. I was watching Power Rangers yesterday night! As childish it may seem to be, but...it really does bring back sweet memories. :) 10:01 AM Friday, September 3, 2010 Today has been one lazy day for me. It's one of those days where you just want to laze around at home and not do a thing. And that was exactly what I did. Haha! It's great being able to take a breather, to just relax, and seemingly not have a care in the world. It's good to step back once in a while. Plus, I finally watched Race to Witch Mountain, after numerous failed attempts, and it entertained me, which was good enough. Haha! :) I'm one day closer to my attachment! Not exactly looking forward to it. But, oh well, I'll just see how things turn up. 9:27 PM Thursday, September 2, 2010 As I enter a new month, I thought it would be appropriate to delete all my old posts, and just seemingly start afresh. I just don't want my blog to be so emotional, filled with things that I have wrote on impulse. And so, everything is gone! :) It's been four to five months since I joined nursing. Not surprisingly, I can still vividly remember the day where I received the sms, informing me that I have made into nursing. It came as a total shock to me. Never in my whole life would I thought that I'd land myself into that predicament. I chose to stay on, instead of appealing, because I wanted to do God's will. And to say that I've never regretted it, to say that I stayed on willingly, to say that I'm enjoying it would all be lies. It's one of the toughest thing I've ever done. The workload, the people and the new environment. It took me so long before I finally got settled down. I doubted God. I doubted myself. I didn't think I was good enough, not fit enough to be a nurse and taking care of people. I thought I heard God wrongly. But I just didn't want to drop out, I just didn't want to opt out. I just couldn't stray away from God's will. And now as the semester comes to an end, I'm still trying very hard but at least, I'm surviving. I'm going for my attachment soon, and that's gonna be another thing altogether. I don't know how it's gonna go, or how Sem 2 would be, but I know as long I trust in Him, everything would work out fine. 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